no way out

how .... how can i overcome what i have not earned? I am standing at the dawn of a new day and it burns my eyes to see it. I found what i wanted but it hurts to hold it .The inadequacies that bind my mind are many. The fear is real, the pain is coming . Its a pending time bomb thats just going to hurt worse the longer it takes to explode. I want to stop the dream right now and get back to misery. I need to ground my jet, calm the storm.