so ...alot has changed but some things remain .... I wonder how it could be ? I fall into a pattern . I fall.. sometimes I feel like I fail..There is a cloud that's coming ...closing in casting its dull gray shadow over the playing field. Darkness will follow ... in the depths of despair you must find strength to carry the torch . to get up ... to rise.. and stand. there is a day ... a day that .......its coming ... the hooks will be removed ... forced out slow unyielding pressure .....its the only way to true success .... success .... it escapes my grasp in all aspects of my life ... wells up .. and waters.... ther was a time when it was cleaner ... fresher ... more....... but the dull drain .. the rhythms of the world have taken there toll... when will you know true ....truth ..... when .. will it add .... and come across clear on the ledger .. not now..... not tonight .... not tonight ... when the smartest thing said was from a cookie