what do you think ? that somehow you will be just walking down the street and it will happen ? that it will be clear to you about how it had to be and that all the events from that day to the next were for a reason that brought you to that moment .... that every pain you felt, that the despair that creeps over you while you are in bed at night was a mirage and is gone ..... that somehow it was meant to be that there is is this grandiose scheme being played out with you as a pawn in the middle .... is that what you think ??? is that how its going to be ??? how long to do you go on with it .... not voicing , not speaking and certainly not feeling like you are in it ??? when does it come time to be alive? at what point is reality going to set in ... alone ... together but alone .... not feeling ... certainly not believing .... fingers cant keep up with the struggle ..... the angst inside... perception is you reality ... and somehow ..... just somehow ...that the clouds will part the sun will shine and then it will come back ... but then what ?? where will you be ?? what will you be ??? this all matters for not ! cause the root of your demons cannot be solved by beauty or a smile .... not attitude or swank ..... cause in the end your alone .... and alone is where your problems are .... clutter in your mind and life, a time for passing is coming ..the storm on the horizon is drifting away into the gray ..... dull long and dreary ..... shapeless and lacking ....it sucks you in ...pulls ...easy at first .. unbearable not long there after ...... fair ??? whats fair .... and if you act now ........where do you stand ..and if you act now who do you care for ..... do you care for yourself .. things are fine but there not .... things are strong but there not ......desperation from the clasp of life is your trial .... no way to escape.... age creeps in but you feel the same .... a number .... your mind is fresh ... your mind is young .... talk .... talk, you have talked all your life and still find confusion where you need clarity ..... what can be done has been what can be changed hasn't .. what hasn't been changed has been .... laws and codes are nothing ..... time and patience is wasted ... what to do and who to do it too ??? somehow ...someway .... there is a answer out there.....