the truth of it all

OK so there comes a time when everyone hurts someone they care about. We have been on both sides of that street. We have hurt and been hurt. We have tried with the best intentions to withstand our own evil doing. We have struggled with what is right, wrong, and what should be . How we can be happy and not selfish . How we can love and not hate. when the world is pressing on your back to be able to stand tall at the end of the day ...well that is all that we can ask for... We show kindness to strangers and venom to our loved ones. Why is it that when you feel comfortable you feel as though you don't have to work . Why do I feel as though every move I make is the wrong one. Where is it going... Where are we going .. and what have we done to get there ? When things end people are hurt and anger rears its ugly head . Sides are chosen and lines are drawn. This is the nature of things and we can except that .. but lies ... when spread about and shaken can ruin a lifetime of work and perseverance. Long have we done things the right way and long have they ended the the wrong way.When will the circle end.. When will it end.. you would think that at this point in the world I would have a incline of what i was talking about ... I don't ... I write to express, but my voice is guarded..long is the fear of tapping into what really lies beneath. to come to grips with that it.. to understand that there is no gold, no sunshine or sky, sand or water I have to deal with the facts and they are this ..happiness is elusive and rare ... can you rush it ? can you save it ? is it real ? for me ....sadly i think not ....